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ang pinag-uusapan natin about anak.
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Tsaka nag-approach ako sa'yo noon.
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Naaalala ko in that time,
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yung pag-iisip ko noon, kinakabahan ako
00:39.0
sa pagiging isang tatay.
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So anyone that I can talk to, talaga nilalapitan ko,
00:43.0
nagtatanong ako ng advice.
00:45.0
At nagtanong ako sa'yo noon.
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Noong 24, 25 siya,
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nagkaroon siya ng quarter life crisis.
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So imagine, you're going through a quarter life crisis
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and a year or two, you became a father.
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Tama nga, bigla mo kong kinrush ka agad na,
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oh nga, lahat nangyari yun.
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Quarter life crisis,
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tas naging tatay.
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konting ano lang, hindi na sa'yo,
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hindi lang ikaw na nabubuhay.
01:10.0
Nabubuhay ka na para sa iba bigla.
01:12.0
Hindi mo na pag-aari yung buhay mo,
01:14.0
kasi kailangan mo na mabuhay para sa mga anak mo.
01:16.0
Celebrities are actually very open now
01:18.0
with what they're going through
01:20.0
on their personal life when it comes to
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being in the industry,
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growing up in the industry, being in the public eye.
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Ikaw naranasan mo yun nung...
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24 years old ako.
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Nagsimula yan sa ano eh,
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sa namimiss ko na yung mga
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special loved ones ko.
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Ibat-ibang tao na yung
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influence na dumarating sa buhay mo.
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hindi mo na sila nasa sala.
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So all in all, parang
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nawawala na yung pagkatao mo.
01:50.0
Hindi mo na kilala yung sarili mo.
01:52.0
Alam ko yung sinasabi mo. At one point, parang kinain ka na
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ng showbiz. Umiikot na yung mundo mo doon.
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Pero lucky enough na
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we're lucky enough na pinagdaanan natin yun.
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Hindi, dadaan lahat talaga.
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Ikaw kasi nakikita ko na
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napaka, ang swerte
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pa rin natin na pinagdaanan natin yun.
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Kasi, di ba, ang dami kong natutunan dun.
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But yun nga lang,
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in the journey of pursuing your dreams,
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along the way, you sometimes
02:18.0
tend to lose yourself.
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That is the price.
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The price of fame, the price of
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being a public figure.
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Parang feeling mo, meron
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ng sense of ownership
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yung public sa'yo. So, wala
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na yung privacy. Parang lahat
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nagiging parte. So,
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hindi mo siya na... So, paano mo hinandal
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yung sa'yo? Kinaquit ko yung social media.
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hindi ko siya tinitignan.
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Ano ang pinakamisconception sa'yo
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ng tao? Babayaro.
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Yun ang tingin sa'yo ng mga tao, pero alam mo sa sarili mo,
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hindi ka ganun. Hindi ako magbayo.
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Paano ka ba magmahal? Pag i-describe me.
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Ginibigay ko talaga lahat.
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anything that I can think of
03:06.0
that will make her happy,
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But still, may mga pagkakamali
03:16.0
hindi pa ako ganun kamatur.
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May pagkakamali mo bang yun?
03:20.0
Did you experience cheating on a girl?
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May ganun pagkakamali nung bata ka?
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Everything that you do
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Kung anong ginawa mo
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You get what you give.
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At wala kang takas dun.
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At wala kang takas.
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So, na-experience mo naman yun?
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Naranasan mo na rin ba yung ma-heartbroken
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in a relationship?
04:02.0
Napaiya ka na ng babae?
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Dahil beses na ako.
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Na-experience mo na ba na someone cheated on you?
04:12.0
Ano yung feeling being on the other end?
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parang there's no life.
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Wala ka ng buhay.
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Hindi ka na magising na maaga.
04:30.0
Part of you dies.
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It's worse talaga.
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You just turned 33.
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You've experienced being married.
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And then you became a father.
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what happened to the marriage?
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Ano na yung status
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ng heart mo ngayon?
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Wala kasi ako ano eh.
04:56.0
kung anong gusto nalang isipin.
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wala akong sagot dyan.
05:04.0
Mahirap yung dinana ko.
05:06.0
Dun sa marriage mo?
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Kasi binuo ko yun eh.
05:10.0
Bilang isa lalaki.
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So, mga time na yun,
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binabatikos tayo ng mga taong
05:22.0
nangyayari yun, syempre that's normal.
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what's the most important thing to do right now?
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Hindi na talaga eh.
05:32.0
Hindi na mag-over?
05:36.0
what's the most important thing to do right now
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is spend my time with my kids.
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And how can I spend my time with them?
05:44.0
How can I be a good father?
05:48.0
When you look at your kids,
05:50.0
minsan ba naisip mo na
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you feel sorry na
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you weren't able to give them
05:56.0
a complete family when you see them?
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Naisip mo ba yun?
06:04.0
kid's dream na buo yung pamilya.
06:10.0
I'm so lucky kasi,
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I'm lucky enough to, privileged enough
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bata, it teaches you
06:20.0
to be a better man.
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Nag-change talaga yung buhay ko.
06:26.0
Nagkaroon ako ng anak.
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na bago ang dalawang bata?
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Simple. Nagkaroon ng
06:34.0
sigla yung buhay ulit.
06:36.0
Sets your priorities.
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Kakaroon ka ng direction.
06:42.0
It gives you a deeper purpose in life.
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Especially faith.
06:52.0
Nakakatuwa yung anak ko si Alas.
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Nagdarasal kami ni Alas.
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I was asking God, asking for this and that.
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How can I get this?
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Nak, anong gusto mo?
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Papa, gusto ko, love ko si God.
07:16.0
Yun yung gusto ko.
07:18.0
Gusto ko, love ko si God.
07:22.0
Kasi Papa, si God yung gumawa ng beach.
07:24.0
Siya yung gumawa ng bahay.
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Siya yung gumawa ng mga tao.
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Siya yung gumawa ng mga dinosaur.
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Siya yung gumawa ng mga tubig.
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we're not gonna ask for anything.
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Gusto ko lang, love ko si God.
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That's gratefulness, as simple as that.
07:40.0
Parang, uy, nahit ako.
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You have to be grateful too.
07:44.0
Wow. Coming from a kid na
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five-year-old kid na gano'n siya.
07:48.0
Ganon yung pananaw niya.
07:50.0
Hindi siya humingi ng material na bagay.
07:54.0
Sapat na sa kanya na mahal niya si God.
07:56.0
Naniniwala ka ba dito?
08:00.0
the best thing a father can do
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is to love their mother.
08:06.0
Naniniwala ako dito.
08:08.0
You still have that love for the mother of your kids.
08:12.0
Hindi na makawala yun.
08:16.0
Every now and then,
08:18.0
you can love a person naman
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Pagmamahal, kasi hindi mo siya mapap...
08:26.0
Siya makakonvert.
08:28.0
It just so happen na hindi na talaga.
08:32.0
Hindi na mag-awork?
08:34.0
It's not meant to be?
08:36.0
Or hindi na compatible?
08:38.0
There are other ways to make it work.
08:40.0
Like co-parenting.
08:42.0
I watch over them.
08:44.0
And make sure that
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I am responsible.
08:48.0
I'm getting better to be
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na masustentuhan yung
08:54.0
kailangan kong sustentuhan.
08:56.0
And capable of this.
08:58.0
Na maging capable ako,
09:00.0
na maging disiplinado ko enough to
09:02.0
organize everything to have more time.
09:04.0
Time that I can give them.
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Kung anong matutunan ko.
09:20.0
Anong natutunan mo sa marriage?
09:22.0
Kasi na-experience mo na yung marriage.
09:24.0
Yung mga pinaka-importante sa marriage
09:26.0
is the preparation.
09:28.0
You have to be prepared.
09:30.0
Don't jump into it right away.
09:32.0
You have to be prepared mentally.
09:36.0
So hindi ka ba prepared
09:38.0
noong time na yun?
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That time, I think I was prepared.
09:42.0
Pero looking back now, hindi.
09:44.0
Akala mo lang prepared?
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Realize mo na lang.
09:52.0
Prepared talaga. Confident ka.
09:54.0
Pero ngayon pag-iisipin ko,
09:56.0
after itong separation namin,
10:16.0
Co-parent talaga.
10:18.0
Mas okay kayong co-parent?
10:20.0
May mga ganun. May mga, di ba,
10:22.0
nakikita natin yan na mas okay sila apart
10:26.0
Mas nagbawork yung
10:28.0
pagpapalaki nila ng anak
10:30.0
na hindi sila magkasama.
10:32.0
Ganun yung sa amin ni Kylie.
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Much better pag hindi kami magkasama
10:36.0
pag parenting lang.
10:38.0
Alam mo ba ang iniisip ng mga tao?
10:40.0
The reason why your marriage fell apart is because you cheated.
10:42.0
Anong reaksyon mo pag yun ang
10:46.0
The reason why your marriage fell apart is because
10:50.0
Yeah, totoo naman.
10:58.0
Ina-admit ko yun may pagkakamali ako.
11:00.0
Ano yung may masasabi mong biggest mistake mo
11:04.0
The biggest mistake na ano ko is hindi ako
11:06.0
nagkaroon ng time sa kanila.
11:08.0
Nung nagkaroon ako ng takot na
11:14.0
Nawalan ako ng oras so nawala yung
11:18.0
iisipin nila. Ang bata mo pa, you're still
11:20.0
so young. You have all the time
11:22.0
in the world to make up for those
11:24.0
mistakes. For all the lost time na
11:26.0
nawala. Diba, everyday
11:28.0
may chance kang mag-make up
11:32.0
patunayan ulit yung sarili mo.
11:34.0
May chance ka na ipakita
11:36.0
na hindi, babawi ako sa kung ano
11:38.0
man yung pagkakamali ko.
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Masasabi ko, I did.
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Masasabi mo ba na you did
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everything that you could
11:48.0
to save your relationship?
11:50.0
Nagawa mo yung part mo.
11:56.0
Nagawa mo yung part mo pero.
12:00.0
May hirap siya kasi hindi na talaga mag-work.
12:02.0
You come up to the
12:04.0
may realize mo na
12:06.0
I have to accept this. Hindi na talaga.
12:08.0
Kasi ginawa ko na lahat.
12:12.0
Ginawa niya rin lahat. Fair niya siya.
12:16.0
Sinong nag-walk away sa relationship?
12:18.0
Is it you or her?
12:22.0
It's mutual. Mindalo ako.
12:24.0
So anong status ng puso mo ngayon?
12:28.0
Sapat in what way?
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Sapat lang. Sapat sa
12:32.0
pagmamahal sa sarili ko.
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Sapat sa pagmamahal ko sa
12:36.0
panganon, sa mga anak ko.
12:38.0
Sa lahat ang maimportante yung buhay.
12:40.0
Tao sa buhay ko. Sapat.
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Hindi labis na kulang.
12:44.0
Sapat ba yan for the new love of your life?
12:46.0
Sapat ako. Okay ako.
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And I don't want to
12:54.0
May curiosity yung public about your private life.
12:58.0
Gusto nilang malaman.
13:00.0
Ako kasi pag ganyan.
13:02.0
Pag ayaw akong pag-usapan.
13:04.0
I just stay quiet.
13:06.0
Timit na lang ako.
13:08.0
For now kasi ito na lang.
13:10.0
Yung energy ko binibigay ko
13:12.0
sa what's more important.
13:16.0
So ano yung important ngayon sa'yo?
13:18.0
Ako bilang sa sarili ko,
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ang mas importante sa akin ngayon
13:24.0
talking about this and
13:26.0
yung ganyang mga speculation.
13:30.0
Naisip ko saan kami pupunta ng mga.
13:32.0
Naischedule ko saan kami pupunta ng mga anak ko
13:36.0
Kasi I only have that time for them.
13:38.0
Nang minsan hindi ko pa nabibigay kasi
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may mga trabaho pa.
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Yun yung mga iniisip ko.
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Paano ko uuyan yung oras ko sa kanila?
13:46.0
I put my energy there.
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Hindi mo nilang pinapansin
13:52.0
yung opinion nila.
13:54.0
Mas pinapansin mo nilang yung importanteng.
13:56.0
Maramdamin talaga ako eh.
14:00.0
bagay sa buhay mo na lang ang pinagtutunan mo.
14:02.0
Ang iniisip ng tao
14:04.0
manhida ako pero hindi maramdamin talaga ako.
14:06.0
Lahat na nababasa akong masakit yan.
14:08.0
Kaya hindi ako nagbabasa.
14:10.0
Alikilala ko yung sarili ko.
14:12.0
So I put my effort
14:14.0
and time sa mas importante
14:18.0
Sa halimbawa malaki na yung mga anak mo
14:22.0
mapanood nila yung mga interviews mo.
14:24.0
Syempre maraming perception and
14:26.0
misconception sa iyo ng tao.
14:28.0
But if there's one thing na gusto mong malaman
14:30.0
sa anak mo about you?
14:32.0
Nanda din nila hindi perfecto ang tao.
14:38.0
nagkakamali. Pero
14:40.0
pag gusto kong malaman nila na
14:54.0
when it comes to making decisions.
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I'm doing my best.
15:00.0
that I can live my life
15:06.0
na kahit mali yung mga naging desisyon
15:14.0
papa ninyo hindi siya
15:20.0
stagnant. I will always
15:30.0
Pero hindi ako perfecto.
15:32.0
You're trying to do your best
15:36.0
Let's just say na
15:40.0
nagkamali ako sa buhay.
15:44.0
during those times.
15:48.0
And I made this decision na
15:50.0
nawalan ako ng time sa kanila.
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Ang choice ko niyan.
15:58.0
Makapag-provide that time.
16:02.0
looking back hindi siya tama.
16:04.0
So ngayon ano yung best na
16:06.0
tinatry mo for your kids?
16:08.0
You want to be the best in what?
16:10.0
I want to be the best
16:12.0
version of myself.
16:14.0
Version of myself
16:22.0
They will always look up to you.
16:24.0
And they will have this best example
16:28.0
tatay dahil lalaki sila.
16:34.0
I have to accept the fact na talagang
16:36.0
hindi na kami magkasama.
16:42.0
ang mangyayari kasi,
16:44.0
I have to be always the best
16:48.0
hindi na kami magkasama kasi
16:50.0
ang isipin ko ba, maglulugmog ba ako doon?
16:52.0
Hindi na kami magkasama?
16:54.0
Papadala ba ako doon?
16:56.0
O tanggapin ko na lang yung
16:58.0
ito na lang yung kaya ko.
17:00.0
Ito yung mga pwede ko panggawin.
17:02.0
Yan na lang gagawin ko.
17:04.0
So yan na lang gagawin ko.
17:06.0
Pinaka-importanteng bagay
17:08.0
sa'yo ngayon at pinaka-importanteng
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tao sa buhay mo ngayon ay?
