TONI Ep101 | Confessions Of Former Gambling Addicts: How They Lost 50M, Sold 13 Cars & Went To Jail
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PLEASE WELCOME SIR REGAN, PRAFEROSA, SIR REGAN!
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Yes, hello Sir Regan! Welcome!
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Kasi actually ang gambling ay isang form of addiction
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na hindi masyadong napag-uusapan, ano?
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Yes, kasi lalo na ngayon,
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Yes, kasi lalo na ngayon,
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naka-connect yung entertainment sa gambling.
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Ngayon mas madali kasi lahat nasa online.
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Aksidente lang yun, diba,
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yung pagkahiling mo sa gambling?
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Yes, yes, kasi ano yun eh,
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It's a trip in Vegas, parang incentive yun.
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And then, siyempre, as Pilipino,
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nakakita ng Pilipino,
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sa loob na kasino nag-uwork, dealer.
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One dollar po, nanalo ng $18,000.
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May tawag sila dyan yung beginner's luck?
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Beginner's luck, yan, nakuha ko yun.
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Wala talaga akong alam.
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Nagurat na lang ako,
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biglang tumulog yung,
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yung parang jackpot.
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nabago na yung value sa money.
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Siyempre, kuwid na lang eh.
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And then, I tried the casino here.
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san taon naman nagpanalo.
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Pagano yung mga napapanalo mo nun
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Yes, kaya nung...
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Kasi nagmillion ng...
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Kahit anong gusto ko,
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kaya akong bilhin.
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Nung time na yun?
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Nung time na yun.
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Ah, parang naging suwerte yung kamay mo
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sa pag-susugal nung time na yun.
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Nag-susugal nung time na yun.
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Lalalo ka, ma-addict talaga.
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yun na, di naman laging panalo eh.
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Pinakamalaking natalo mo?
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Sinusugal mo lang yun.
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In recovery ko kasi na-realize na
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gambling is a game of emotion.
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Hindi ko na alam bakit ako naglalaro.
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I'm just chasing the emotion na.
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Binibigay ng gambling sa akin.
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Tatlo lang pupunta ng gambler
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Jail, institution, and death.
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I've been to jail.
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Sinabi sa'yo yan?
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Sinabi ito sa akin,
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tsaka sa mga readings
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nung nasa treatment na ako.
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Ah, pero nung haman na naging sugal ka,
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walang nag-warning sa'yo na?
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Sinasabi lang nila,
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masama ang sugal.
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Nakakasama na sa'yo kasi
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iba na yung ginagawa mo sa buhay mo.
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Paano naka-apekta yun sa married life mo?
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Kawawa moy ko talaga.
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Kasi number one, time.
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Wala kong time sa kanya.
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Magkakalimutan ko talaga
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lahat ng responsibilities ko
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once na I'm blinded by the addiction.
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Ano sabi ng wife mo?
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Papaniwala ka nila eh.
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Codependency rin.
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They love you eh.
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walang feelings yun.
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Wala nga kaming remorse eh.
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Maraming kasi akon yung talaga
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mga major fall sa casino
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na pag tinignan ng wife ko
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talaga napakasakit eh.
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Like nung nag-labor siya
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nung sa eldest namin,
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Tumakas ako sa casino ko
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kasi ang intention ko
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is to get more money.
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Nakakuha ka talaga.
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Tatalo lahat yung pambahid namin
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pati yung car ko,
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mga ganon, mga ganon.
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May anak kayo eh.
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basakit pag nare-realize ko na ngayon
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kasi nasa recovery na ako.
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Pero siya nung time na yun?
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ako nasa school lang nun.
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Hindi ka nag-sorry sa kanya?
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Pakita daw mag-sorry.
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Lahat naman ganon eh.
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Lahat naman ng gambling addict,
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Hindi mo'y mimimigay?
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Magaling magsalita,
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magaling magano eh.
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kailangan mabawi ko yung natalo sa akin.
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Haba, balik ka na naman.
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Kahit na nakabaon na sa utang?
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O paano ka bumalik sa paggagambol ulit?
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Saan ka kumuha ng pera?
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May mga financial institutions sa loob ng kasino.
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Doon pwede kang pautangin.
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bas naging pangit yung naging end up
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kasi it's a business eh, yeah.
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Ang pinakamalaking natalo sa'yo
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na nawalang pera sa'yo
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sa pagkinumpyot mo.
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Basta sinabi ko nalang
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I'll close the book at 50M.
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Ang natalo mo sa kasino?
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Ang sinabasakit pa do'y iba,
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hindi pa sa akin.
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Company cars pa nung mga pinasukong.
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Kaya ka nakulong?
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Ano nangyari do'n?
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Ah, desperation na talaga.
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Paano ka nakulong?
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Yung pagsasalyan pala namin,
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O ano nang sabi sa'yo
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Kasi nang dami nilang beses na...
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Matigas talaga yung ulo ko.
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Di sila nagsawang tumulong.
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wala, hindi ko pa rin makuha yung point eh.
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Nung kala ko nabsulte lang ako.
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Sabrang salbahin na talaga.
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Ako yata yung prodigal sana 13 times na
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nagpabalik-balik eh.
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Ang bait na ang sawa mo.
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Sobra yung patience at pagmamahal niya sa'yo.
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Kasi hindi siya nag-give up.
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Hindi naman niya ako nakilala ng gambler eh.
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Tagal namin mag-girlfriend-boyfriend.
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Alam niya, maayos ako eh.
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After kasi nung jail,
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tinreak in na nila ako sa isang psych ward.
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Ay, psych ward na?
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Wala naman yung decent na addict na mapayag
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na magpareha sa sarili eh.
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Hindi, pero nung dinadala ka do'n.
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Tinreak nila ako.
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Hindi, hindi ko alam.
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Wala akong check-up lang eh.
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Anong ginawa sa'yo sa psych ward?
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Siyempre, sugaran lang naman ako eh.
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Oh, isipin mo para to sa mga addict,
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Pinaglaruan ko lang yung mga pasyente do'n.
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wala akong problema eh.
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Iniisip ko wala akong psychological problem.
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Pero mas worse pala ako.
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Na-reveal sa'yo yung mga
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ugali na meron ka
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na hindi mo alam na ganun ka na pala.
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Ano pa yung mga lumabas na na-realize mo?
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every trauma pala, even in the childhood,
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pag yan eh nakahanap ng
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magandang gate bulb na addiction,
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doon nila ipopour out lahat ng emotions.
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So may unhealed pain ka nung childhood?
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Doon ko lang na-discover, no.
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Meron pala akong issue with...
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Shame and yeah, yung
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authoritative figure.
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So doon ko na-realize, ah may ganun pala ako.
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mini-mirror back ko na rin pala yung
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Kasi nagiging narcissistic din ako.
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So after mong one year lumabas sa facility,
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kamusta na yung nag-i-relationship mo sa wife mo?
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Kamusta na yung family life mo?
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How are you as a husband and a father now?
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Siyempre, top-level lang muna sila.
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Kasi may sarili rin silang program eh.
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Oo, kasi habang nagre-recover ako sa facility,
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sila rin nagt-therapy.
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Ah, kasi may, ano sila, trauma from you?
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Kaya paglabas ko,
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kailangan maayos yung,
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ano, di na pwede yung dati kong way.
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Kasi manipulative na ako eh.
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Lahat kailangan mag-recover,
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lahat kailangan mag-adjust.
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Lahat kailangang mag-adapt.
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So kung may mga nanonood sa atin ngayon,
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na marahil sila naman yung dumadaan
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sa pinagdaanan mong gambling addiction,
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anong gusto mong sabihin sa kanila?
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Kasi pinagdaanan mo na yan.
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Well, there's help.
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Meron na kasi ngayon na mga fellowship na
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nagt-therapy face-to-face
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at meron din by Zoom.
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So you just need to search for
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a certain support group
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here in the Philippines
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that will work for you.
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Oo, pero nang gano'n.
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Talaga itinuklas ko yung sakit ko.
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Yung admittance ko talaga sobrang
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hundred percent na
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manageable ako sa gambling.
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One is too many and a thousand is never enough sa akin.
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Kaya kailangan pangalagahan ko yung unang taya ko lang.
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Kasi yun lang ang maaalala ko eh.
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So gambling addiction pala,
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it's a lifelong recovery.
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Nandun lagi yung urge.
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Ilalabanan mo lang.
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Yes, kaya kailangan meron kang
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sa mga triggering emotion.
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Oo, so ang pinalit mo ay?
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Outdoor therapies, mga gano'n.
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Ayun, attending sa meetings,
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hearing the newcomers.
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Pag umating ka kasi doon,
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maririnig ko yung sarili ko doon eh
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na nagsasalita as a newcomer.
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Ang nakuha ko sa'yo is the admittance.
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Yung first, dapat natanggapin mo sa sarili mo na
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yes, I am this person.
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Kasi hanggang di mo tinatanggap sa sarili mo
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na gano'ng klase kang tao.
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Hindi ka mag-heal, hindi ka magbabago,
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hindi ka mag-move forward in life.
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And number two is,
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addiction is not only affecting one person,
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it affects the whole family,
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it affects the whole community.
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hindi kahealthy and kaganda.
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Para sa society natin.
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nagpapasalamat tayo kay Kuya Regan.
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Ang sunod naman po makakasama natin ngayon
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kay isang youth leader na secretly
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ay gambling addict na noon.
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Kaya tunghayan po natin ang kwento ng pag-asa
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at magbabago ni Brother Velden Lim.
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Member ka na ng isang youth group.
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So, parang iisipin mo
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na kay Lord na siya, okay na siya.
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Pero may secret life siya.
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I started out as a young,
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good, technically good boy
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kasi I was a church boy
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siguro early on in my life.
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Bata pa lang ako.
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Nagko-choir na kami,
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along with my brothers and sisters.
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And then later on,
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I became an active member
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of a parish youth group in our parish.
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naging leader ako noon.
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So, nung ako na yung youth leader,
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pinaka-head nung youth group,
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nagsa-start na ako magtrabaho noon eh.
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Doon na ako nagkaroon ng addiction to gambling.
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tama ka yung ano eh.
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na kay Lord ka na.
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So, kakainin ka ng konsensya mo.
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pag-addict ka na eh,
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parang you try to...
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In fact, I was trying to bargain with the Lord.
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Lord, ititigil ko na to.
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Panalunin mo lang ako ulit.
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It was a foolish prayer.
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So, paano nag-start yung gambling?
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It was just one day,
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yung mga kabarkada ko,
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mga pababata ko ito noon,
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niyaya ako mag kasino.
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And so, being a church boy,
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di ba masama yan?
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hindi, okay lang yan.
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Sumama ako sa kanila.
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And lo and behold,
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naging 20,000 pesos
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in just less than 30 minutes.
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So, para sa akin,
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bago pa lang nagtatrabaho noon,
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yung mga kaibigan ko,
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sila, hindi naman sila
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Sila pa nga nago...
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Good time lang sila.
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Yes, good time lang.
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Sila pa nga nag-warn sa akin eh,
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uy, huwag kang babalik dito ah.
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Baka ma-addict ka dito.
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Huwag kang babalik dito
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na hindi kami kasama.
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Baka hindi mo makontrol sarili mo.
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Yan yung pagkakamali ko.
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Bumalik ka talaga mag-isa?
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Bumalik ako mag-isa.
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try ko kaya mag-isa.
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Kahit konti lang,
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Ngayon hanggang sa
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lumalaki na yung dosage mo,
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hindi ko na sila kasama.
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Nawala na yung self-control,
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Nawala na talaga.
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dumating na ako sa punto na,
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my funds are limited.
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bagong tatrabaho pa lang.
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sasangla ako yung cellphone ko,
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sasangla ako yung laptop ko,
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dumating sa point na,
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binidraw ko na lahat ng investments ko,
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lahat ng savings ko,
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at ipinanlaro ko na.
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Alam ng family yan?
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Hindi alam ng parents ko.
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they thought that I was just,
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gumigimik lang ako pagkagabi.
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A gambler's mentality,
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laging merong chance sa bumawi.
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Kaya lang hindi ako makabawi,
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kasi kulang yung funds ko.
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So, during that time,
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I was working in our family business.
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My dad is an engineer.
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My mom takes care of the finances of the business.
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Child of the owner.
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I was in charge of the operations.
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pag nasa company business ka,
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pampasweldo ng tao,
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ng pambili materyales,
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What if kunin ko yung pera na yun?
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Hiraming ko lang,
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that was around 5 a.m. in the morning.
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I can remember this vividly.
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I was down back to my 500 peso chip.
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nung tinaya ko yung 500 pesos na yun,
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para akong ewan nun.
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I was praying to the Lord.
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hindi ko na ito pera.
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Pera na ito ng nanay-tatay ko.
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Please, panalunin mo.
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ganun ako kong desperado.
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Sa gitna ng kasalanan mo,
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i-bless yung kasalanan mo.
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But I was so desperate.
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When the cards turned,
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umiyak ako sa harapan ng mesa.
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Sa harapan ng dealer.
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But while I was driving
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I was already thinking,
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paano ko ito sabihin sa nanay at tatay ko?
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Hindi nila alam na nagsusugal ako.
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And then, come 6 a.m.,
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yung nanay ko pumasok sa kwarto.
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just like a normal mama,
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niyakap ko yung nanay ko
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for the first time
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gusto sorry lang ako.
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Sorry, sorry, sorry, mami.
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bakit? Ano nangyari?
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kinuwento ko sa kanya,
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nalulunga ko sa sugal.
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Hindi ninyo alam.
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And today is the worst day
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kasi yung pera na pinagkatiwala nyo sa akin,
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So, I was expecting my mom na
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kabaligtanan yung na-receive ko.
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Niyakap niya ako mahigpit.
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ang sinabi niya sa akin,
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di ko makakalimutan.
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Tapos, sabi niya,
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di mahalin na yung pera.
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kikitain ulit natin yan ng daddy mo.
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Madaling kitain yan.
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Pero, ang mahalaga ikaw.
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Tapos, sabi niya,
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hindi kasi ganyan yung pagkakakilala ko sayo.
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mabuti kang bata.
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You're a good boy.
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You're a good leader.
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she just hugged me.
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iyak ako ng iyak.
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Nakiiyak siya sa akin.
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I believe that was the turning point of,
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para akong nahimaswasan,
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para akong naiyakap ni Lorne.
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Hindi ka kinundim,
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hindi ka pinagalitan.
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Yung ine-expect mong itatakwil ka na,
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kasigawang ka na,
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susumbatan ka na,
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Minahal ka pa ng sobra.
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parang nagpatawad agad.
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Doon ako nagulat.
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Doon ako nagulat.
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it was just a spirit-filled
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Tawag dito, moment.
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what to top it off,
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the following day,
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dito ako nagulat,
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paasok siya sa kwarto.
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Binigyan niya ako ulit ng pera.
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bumili ka ng materiales,
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pasweldo mo yung mga tao.
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the love was restored,
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and the trust was restored as well.
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It's as if telling me na parang,
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sige, kaya mo bumangon.
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that turned around my whole life.
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kanina nung I was listening to
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your interview with Reagan,
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hindi ko alam paano nangyari yung,
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kung paano ko binago,
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paano ko tumigil sa gambling.
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it's because of the unconditional love
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that I have received.
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the Lord is real,
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God's forgiveness and unconditional
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is always available.