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Ang tagal na natin hindi nagkita ama.
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Kaya ngayon, ang gagawin natin ay yung aming tinatawag na The What Interview.
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Lahat ng aming mga katanungan, except for the follow-ups, ay nagsisimula sa What.
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Reb, what are you when you're alone?
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I believe that when I commune with God, I need to be still and feel His presence.
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I ask for quiet time.
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It's very important for quiet time for me to get that inspiration.
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You know, it's very hard to be a creative every day.
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So sometimes you need to pause and think about what you're doing also.
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What makes you happy, Reb?
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My wife makes me happy.
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Yes, wonderful. Very strong.
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My dog. I love my dog.
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Pag nagpipinta ka, masaya ka?
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You know, my experience in painting is sort of trance-like.
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Especially when the music is on and I'm listening to it and I'm just lost in the colors.
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I'm just lost in the aesthetics.
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I'm lost in what I want to do.
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And then biglang, oops, it's done. It's finished. What did I do?
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Halimbawa, this powerful red painting.
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What is the story?
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The story is I was trying to paint colors from my series called Dreaming of H.R. Ocampo,
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which were orange, yellow, Indian red.
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So I tried that and then I saw it.
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I saw the flowers and I decided to paint over it.
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Red to me symbolizes many things, but first and foremost, it's the blood shed by Christ for me.
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And love. Unconditional love.
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That piece is interesting, Reb.
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I was thinking of, you know, everybody has coy paintings.
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And I was like, how can I do it in a minimal kind of way and have some movement in the work?
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So the process was also printing, putting canvas face to face and sliding it.
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I think the oriental feel of this painting was, I think I was successful in my eyes.
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I think so. This gave me the idea.
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This gave me particularly the idea.
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There's nothing to do with coy.
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But I wasn't sure about it until you said it.
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So I didn't want to make it a literal kind of, because, you know, in art, everything has been done.
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Everything has been done.
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Nothing is really new.
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Nothing is really contemporary or, but it's the moment.
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It's where you say, this is the time I felt this way.
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This is the time I wanted to paint these images.
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That makes it personal.
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Yes, it makes it personal.
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What happens when you paint something and when you look at it, you say, I'm not happy?
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I have to have that clear mind to reach what I want.
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So if it's ugly to me, I put it aside sometimes for years.
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Then I go back to it.
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And then I adorn it or I do something with it where I paint over it.
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What do you know about love?
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I learn every day.
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I learn from the people, my friends.
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I learn from my wife.
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I learn from my family.
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I learn from my mom.
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My mom, the biggest influence in my life.
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The beautiful divina.
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And vis-a-vis my wife also.
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My wife is responsible for what I am right now, from hitting rock bottom and where I am right now in my life.
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What is life like without Vale?
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I can't imagine life without her.
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You know, my life's an open book.
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People may have opinions.
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We know how people talk about us.
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We know how people can be judgmental.
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But it's unconditional love.
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But it had been a journey, Reb, because you were a child star and you are from a business where people care, are told to care, where people have to be approved.
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So that journey from there to today, when you don't care, what has it been like?
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I never did care anyway.
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That's why I think...
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Even if you were in the business of caring?
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Like, I think one of the things that got me, that there was a cabal, I think, against me or something, was because I had no filter.
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I would say what I wanted to say then.
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But, you know, being a depressive, I have mental illness.
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I suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder.
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Here, they say it's bipolar, depressive.
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But I have an antidote.
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And after I sleep for a few days, I'm back in the saddle again.
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So I help myself.
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So helping myself is not caring.
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So what is your response to rejection today?
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It's just redirection.
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You're rejected here.
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Okay, I'm going here.
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I just remember what Oprah said.
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You know, when you're rejected, it's God's way of saying, not there, turn left and turn right.
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You're probably destined to be there.
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And especially when people now talk about respecting one's journey and loving one's destiny.
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Reb, what hurts you?
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Injustice, betrayal.
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What can't you forget?
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And what can't you forgive?
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I can't forget the death of my Ninong, FPJ.
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Because he was like my father.
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He treated me like his son.
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I grew up making films with him.
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He sent me to school, to the United States, when he knew that I wasn't really doing well.
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He said, go to the States and study there.
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What I can't forgive are those people right now in this space.
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I don't want to say this person's name, but the disrespect, the utter disrespect and no facts.
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Because I should have known.
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I would have known.
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It still triggers me.
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And when you're triggered?
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And when I'm triggered, I cry.
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I dream about him a lot.
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Reb, what is the best thing about you?
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I'm a loving person.
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I love unconditionally.
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The biggest misconception about Duran Reb Daliasa, what is it?
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I'm still a drug addict.
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27 years of debauchery and drug use.
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Of course, I don't deny it.
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But I've been 14 years sober.
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So that's my past.
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It's still the same.
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Do you fight back?
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Because it's tiring to be defensive about something that's as massive an accusation as you're crazy.
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Sometimes it comes from the people closest to you.
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But when you hear it from other people, like who don't know you from Adam.
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Like when you're eating in a restaurant and you're being accused.
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That happens to you?
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There are a lot of situations like that.
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That you're the one being accused?
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Katulad noong time na nakablue akong sapatos.
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Tapos may pamilya, kumakain kami ng kaibigan ko.
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Tapos sabi noong bata doon sa tatay,
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Bakit po blue yung sapatos niya?
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Kaya blue yung ano, huwag kang lalapit siya.
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Sabi ko, bakit si Elvis Presley nakablue suede shoes?
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Gusto mo kay pagbugbugan?
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Wala nangyari, dito nangyari yun sa Tomas Moda to,
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In a Japanese restaurant.
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So ganoon, may mga taong ganoon eh.
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I wanted to correct them.
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I wanted to say, no, it's not like that.
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But, will they listen?
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What is fame to you?
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Using your lens today.
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It's a double-edged sword.
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Very, very, very.
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And it can, it's very bad for your ego and your id, you know?
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Sometimes, you might believe what they write or say about you.
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It's really fleeting.
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This media campaign that we just did,
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I'm so happy about it because
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there's more interest.
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Before, I had shows nobody would write about.
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I would always, you know, just keep it low-key.
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You know, I've been playing with the band Color It Red for about 20 years.
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I'm a part, quasi-member of the band.
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I play harmonica.
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And I also sing backup for Cookie Chua.
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There was one time I opened an exhibit and no one came.
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And this was in Conspiracy Cafe.
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Because they were so used to this big party,
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And I go, I don't know.
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And then, two years later,
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after four more exhibits,
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And it was a drop of a key.
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And I said, Cookie, they're back.
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I don't know what happened.
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Maybe God blessed me.
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Maybe they saw the light that was coming out from me.
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What are you first?
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Are you a painter, actor, actor-painter?
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But even as an actor, you are a painter.
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Yeah, but like they say,
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you can't use the word artist loosely
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if you don't practice your vocation.
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I practice. I paint every day.
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So what do I call myself?
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What will I box myself in?
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I think I can call myself an artista.
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And people forget that I'm a trained actor.
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I learned from the greats.
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I worked with national artists,
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directors, actors,
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Eddie Romero, Ismael Bernal,
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What is it about acting that you miss the most?
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When I know that I've moved a person.
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Like I did theater with Bart Gingon,
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A Kiss of the Spider Woman, years ago.
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That was immediate.
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The feeling on stage
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and audience giving you the love
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or being entertained
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or they're enjoying themselves.
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That was one of the most, you know,
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happiest, best time for me.
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What matters the most to you now?
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I think we all realize that.
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Yeah, at a certain age,
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especially I have a stent in my heart.
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I've had heart problems.
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I've been having hypotension.
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It's scary. It's scary.
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What is it like to be a child of God?
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You close your eyes and you're just like.
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You breathe and you feel the love.
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What is your family like?
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I love that. Crazy bunch.
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Crazy bunch. We're a crazy bunch.
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And we all accept that.
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We all have our highs, our lows.
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We endure all these challenges
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that we are faced with
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as a good, modern family
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because my wife's ex-husband
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is also my good friend.
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And the kids are like my own kids.
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So we're a modern, crazy family.
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What is it that you don't have today
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that you still want?
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but just to be able for me
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to pay for my health insurance every year
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because I value my health
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and that will continue my life.
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You're not afraid of death?
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The process, I'm afraid of.
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But I've accepted the fact that it will happen.
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I just pray every night that,
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Lord, I just want to wake up tomorrow again
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because it just feels like yesterday
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that I was alive,
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like when I was born.
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but the way I think is like 17 or 21.
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It's still like that.
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What is the biggest dream
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that remains unfulfilled?
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Oh, to travel more.
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I used to backpack my way through Europe
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when I was 19, 20, 21.
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I stopped traveling when I was like 35.
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Inahabol ko ngayon yung experience.
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What other human beings can teach me?
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What culture can I get from?
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Is there kindness in their culture?
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And how do they love?
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What is heaven to you?
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I imagine heaven to be a place of love and light.
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Heaven can be here.
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It's just how you look at it.
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and the opposite of it.
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I'm afraid of hell.
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I always question myself.
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Mabait ba akong tao?
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Pag nakita ko ba si San Pedro,
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titila ako ang kanyang mano ko?
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Hindi ako papapasukin,
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What is your love language?
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I cry when I tell people I love them.
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Reb, what would you do if you were to die
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right after this conversation?
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I hope that I am welcomed by Jesus Christ
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and embraced in His arms.
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Face to face with the great divine of God.
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What would you tell Him?
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Am I worthy to be here?
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What would you write on your epitaph?
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It's a Broadway play,
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I want to go back to the restaurant
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where that man and his child.
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looking at your blue pair of shoes.
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And then, was it the child who asked
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why he's wearing blue shoes?
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And the father said,
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because he's gay.
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To that man who said it,
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what do you want to say?
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Is that what you're teaching your son?
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To ask and give the wrong answer?
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That, I hope you look at me first
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before you judge me.
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I love you, Father.
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I love you so much.
