00:23.9
Pandemic. So five years for me, that's what it feels like, five years.
00:27.0
I haven't said thank you for having me.
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I can't believe I'm actually here, to be honest.
00:31.0
Sabi ko, kamusta na kaya si Diego?
00:32.9
Nasaan na kaya siya?
00:34.4
Tapos nalaman ko, oh, daddy ka na ngayon.
00:39.0
It's been a while.
00:40.0
So I'm sure ang dami nang nabago from the last time.
00:58.4
Bakit, bakit nawala?
01:23.6
2018 was a tough time for me.
01:28.7
Even before, mentally, spiritually, everything.
01:31.6
Pati career-wise?
01:33.6
I was shooting Los Bastardos noong time na yun.
01:35.8
So pwede ko nga sabihin na, if anything, my career was on the rise noong anoong time na yun.
01:44.4
It was just tough.
01:45.3
It was pretty difficult for me.
01:47.6
With things going on outside of showbiz din.
01:50.6
Yung personal life?
01:51.4
Personal life, yeah.
01:52.7
So, yeah, it was a much-needed break.
01:54.9
Kaso nga lang, ang pagbabalik ko noong 2020, nag-pandemic naman.
01:58.4
Anong ginawa mo noong pandemic?
01:59.8
I was in Antipolo with my mom.
02:03.3
And that's where we spent a good eight months to one year.
02:09.4
Until I moved back into my unit in QC.
02:12.1
I think that was a bonding that I had with my mom na parang...
02:15.3
Sana naman hindi, pero parang hindi na maulit-ulit.
02:17.8
Yung parang everyday magigising kami, kakain kami magkasama.
02:21.9
She taught me how to do yoga.
02:24.2
Lagi kami nasa garden.
02:26.3
Parang we don't have the time anymore to do that.
02:28.9
Like, we don't have a big break like that anymore.
02:30.7
So, pinalaki ka ng single mom?
02:34.1
I have a kuya pa.
02:34.9
Six years older than me.
02:36.1
Tingin ko yung mga bata na lumaki sila, na nakita nila,
02:39.5
mag-isa silang tinaguyod ng mami nila.
02:42.6
Mas iba yung pagmamahal respeto.
02:47.7
Kasi nawitness nila eh.
02:50.3
Nawitness mo yung hirap.
02:52.0
And ang anak kasi emotionally connected yan sa nanay.
02:55.9
Kahit na hindi sinasabi sa'yo ng nanay mo,
02:58.4
when she's going through something, you can feel it.
03:01.2
Sensitive ang mga bata eh.
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I know that because I have a boy.
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And he's seven now.
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And congrats also.
03:09.3
Congrats also to you!
03:11.4
My hands are cold, sorry.
03:14.0
Ilang months na yun sa'yo?
03:17.1
Sleepless nights.
03:17.8
Sleepless nights.
03:18.7
But, yeah, nakita.
03:20.5
Sabi ni Diego, gumanon.
03:24.6
Sabi ni Diego, sabi niya,
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oh, nakita na sa mata ko, sleepless nights.
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No, of course not.
03:28.5
That's the best yung ulo na ganyan ng newborn.
03:32.5
Naiisip ko when your daughter was born.
03:35.5
It's a rebirth of you.
03:37.4
Yeah, that's true.
03:38.4
I mean, I can't say na just because I saw my child,
03:42.6
Because after this interview,
03:43.9
if I make a mistake the next week,
03:45.2
oh, look, he's a hypocrite, di ba?
03:46.7
I think as humans, we're still learning each step of the way.
03:49.9
Pero yes, I read nga somewhere na,
03:51.8
for the women, they feel it the entire nine months, eh, di ba?
03:55.0
Until one day, the baby's there.
03:57.2
For the dads, it's like,
03:58.9
okay, you're pregnant, parang hindi ka pa feel, okay.
04:01.6
Oh, ito na, your water broke, okay, here comes the baby.
04:04.5
It's in an instant na parang, my whole life just changed.
04:08.2
There's this baby na, now I have to prepare.
04:10.7
And for the women, they get that.
04:12.1
You feel everything.
04:13.6
So, saludo nga talaga sa mga moms.
04:15.9
It's different, but in the same sense,
04:19.3
I'm also trying to be the most supportive dad that I can be
04:22.5
for the mom and my baby, syempre.
04:25.5
So, when you look at your baby,
04:28.0
I think I see me.
04:29.0
You see you in what way?
04:31.6
I see baby me, eh.
04:33.0
Yeah, physically.
04:34.2
And then also, I guess,
04:37.1
and I don't mean this in any bad way,
04:39.1
I didn't really grow up, you know,
04:41.5
with, in one household with my dad.
04:45.3
So, parang when I see my baby, parang I'm already doing something
04:48.3
that I didn't get to experience myself.
04:51.3
Again, I don't mean that in a bad way.
04:53.3
It's not like naman my dad had a choice, di ba?
04:55.3
We moved away, eh.
04:57.4
Pero may sinabi ka ata dun sa caption mo sa IG na,
05:01.4
I don't know if this is the whole context, na hindi mo ipaparamdam sa kanya
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yung naramdaman mo nung bata ka or yung naranasan mo nung bata ka.
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Yeah, I think I said, like, I promised to give her the things I didn't have.
05:13.4
Ano yung the things that you didn't have?
05:18.4
It was my partner, the mother of my child, who told me na sobrang importante pala din yung ages 1, 2, 3,
05:25.4
toddler stage, until mga 8, 9 years old.
05:30.4
Yes, that's where they really build the character.
05:33.4
I met my dad, I was 13 na for the first time.
05:36.4
I was a different person, kaya kami nagkakolide noon.
05:39.4
It took me to reach 28, or it was a couple years ago, to finally understand my dad as a human,
05:45.4
as a parent, as a father, as everything.
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And now, sobra kami nagkakasundo.
05:49.4
I don't want my daughter to go through lang that also.
05:53.4
Now, me and my baby mama, we're not together living in the same roof like partners.
05:59.4
I call her my partner because obviously she's my partner.
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Hindi kami kasal, if you get what I mean.
06:04.4
Pero hindi ko ipaparamdam sa anak ko yung naramdaman ko.
06:08.4
When I was growing up, I never really thought na I was looking for a father figure.
06:11.4
But as I got older, I realized, ah, yun pala yung kulang.
06:15.4
That's why there was sometimes like a question mark on how I should do things.
06:20.4
My character, what do I really want?
06:22.4
I guess you pick that up from the dad.
06:24.4
And I want to be there for my daughter.
06:26.4
I want her to, oh, ito yung mga hobbies ko.
06:29.4
If you like this, you know, try what I do.
06:31.4
If you don't, whatever you do, you like, I'll support you.
06:34.4
We almost share the same birthday, which is funny enough.
06:37.4
She gave me pa my day. May 21 ako.
06:42.4
She went into labor 10pm on my birthday.
06:45.4
So I spent the night of my birthday in the hospital with my partner.
06:50.4
She gave me pala one day.
06:54.4
For your birthday.
06:55.4
You know what, ate Tones?
06:56.4
That was supposed to be my post.
06:58.4
I was supposed to either post first Father's Day or the best birthday gift ever.
07:04.4
Kaso nga lang, inunahan ako ng isang, I don't know if she's a tabloid or whatever here in the Philippines.
07:11.4
But anyway, that's off topic.
07:12.4
Inunahan ka sa pag-a-announce?
07:14.4
Sa pag-a-announce.
07:17.4
Ako din, when I got pregnant with Seve, inunahan din ako sa pag-a-announce.
07:21.4
And you can't get pregnant?
07:23.4
You cannot get that back.
07:26.4
This is my moment.
07:27.4
This is your, and you don't get it again, di ba?
07:29.4
Bakit mo kinuha yung moment na yun?
07:31.4
That's true, that's very true.
07:34.4
Yeah, it was annoying.
07:35.4
And then you will realize there are things that you have to let go.
07:37.4
Instead of holding onto that anger.
07:39.4
Wala ka na magagawa eh.
07:40.4
You can't control it.
07:41.4
Kamusta yun nung in-announce mo na siya?
07:44.4
Saka ang galing ah, actually.
07:46.4
Well, kasi yung iba di ba, they hide it for a year, for two years.
07:52.4
No, I was excited.
07:53.4
I was ecstatic to post, actually, to be honest.
07:55.4
Silang lahat yung wait lang, kalma lang.
07:58.4
I was like, okay, I mean, we're in a different country naman.
08:01.4
She gave birth in Australia.
08:03.4
I knew we were safe, nothing to worry about.
08:06.4
Walang malilik, walang mauna.
08:09.4
When it happened, wala din.
08:11.4
Like you said, I let go of it pretty quickly.
08:14.4
I was like, you know what, let's just do it on Father's Day.
08:16.4
I had to post na rin.
08:18.4
So now people think I came out because
08:20.4
somebody else leaked the information.
08:22.4
But no, not really.
08:23.4
Someone just ruined my moment.
08:24.4
So I had to come out and say it na rin.
08:27.4
Totoo talaga yun eh.
08:28.4
Sometimes it's nice to keep things private
08:30.4
because people ruin beautiful things.
08:35.4
Magmamature ka din pag nagkaanak ka.
08:38.4
Yung parang bigla kang magsistep up.
08:41.4
It definitely came with it.
08:42.4
I pretty much started from zero again.
08:45.4
And I don't mind sharing that.
08:46.4
There's no shame in that.
08:48.4
I started from zero.
08:49.4
2020, I started working again.
08:51.4
Non-stop for VIVA.
08:52.4
Thank God for VIVA na I started working for them.
08:56.4
I finally built a little bit.
08:58.4
I was like, okay, I'm ready.
08:59.4
Let's go house hunting.
09:01.4
I don't know, it was just in my bones.
09:02.4
Like in my DNA na na-feel ko na rin na parang
09:05.4
I need to have a kid.
09:07.4
Parang feeling ko I need a kid here na.
09:10.4
I don't want to get too old.
09:11.4
Sumasakit na minsan yung likod ko.
09:13.4
I'm losing my hair already.
09:15.4
Hindi mo mahabol na yung anak mo?
09:17.4
Ah, gusto mo na rin talaga?
09:20.4
She was 100% planned.
09:23.4
Alam din ang mami mo?
09:25.4
Nagusto mo na rin?
09:27.4
I've been saying it to her for years.
09:30.4
And she just kept on saying,
09:31.4
basta if you're happy with your relationship with your partner,
09:34.4
you know, motherly advice.
09:36.4
Because it's a never-ending relationship na yun kayong dalawa
09:40.4
until the end of your times.
09:42.4
You will forever be connected because of your kid.
09:46.4
No matter what happens to your relationship,
09:47.4
there is a kid that will connect the two of you
09:50.4
for the rest of your life.
09:51.4
Pero may nabasa ako.
09:53.4
You don't believe in marriage?
09:54.4
I don't believe in marriage.
09:57.4
Bakit di ka naniniwala sa marriage?
09:58.4
It's a piece of paper for me.
10:02.4
That's how you look at it?
10:05.4
Kunwari lang ha, you and me.
10:07.4
We agree on everything.
10:09.4
There's not a spot or a piece of line or paragraph
10:12.4
that we don't agree on.
10:13.4
Absolutely everything.
10:14.4
100% crystal clear.
10:16.4
Why must we now get it written down on a piece of paper
10:19.4
and then get someone else to bestow onto us
10:23.4
that we are now a married couple?
10:25.4
Ang sakin lang kasi is if ever we fight in the future
10:29.4
and it gets to the point na ayoko na sa'yo,
10:31.4
ikaw galit na galit ka na sa'kin,
10:33.4
it's not a big matter of having to go somewhere,
10:36.4
get annulled, get divorced.
10:38.4
Wala tayong divorce.
10:39.4
Pero it's because I guess growing up I grew around it so much
10:43.4
and I got to see it so much.
10:48.4
I mean aside from my own parents, even the...
10:50.4
People around you?
10:52.4
They're separating?
10:54.4
And until now, minsan malabo, minsan ano.
10:56.4
We're just doing it for the kids.
10:59.4
Okay, so why'd you have to sign the piece of paper?
11:01.4
What do you get in the end?
11:04.4
What about your kids, your children?
11:07.4
I don't think a kid would see any difference
11:09.4
from a married couple's household
11:11.4
than someone who's living together's household.
11:14.4
You abide by the same rules.
11:15.4
Paano yung surname ng babies?
11:19.4
Kasi pinanganak siya sa abroad, di naman dito.
11:22.4
So the laws of the Philippines don't apply to
11:24.4
getting the mom's last name.
11:28.4
So for you, marriage is a piece of paper?
11:32.4
Well, iba-iba tayo ng...
11:36.4
Because this is based on your experience.
11:39.4
Hindi namin pwedeng sabihin na mali ka, hindi tama yung sinabi mo.
11:42.4
Kasi hindi ko naman na-experience yung mga na-experience mo.
11:45.4
Okay ba tayo ng journey?
11:47.4
Thank you. Thank you for seeing it that way.
11:49.4
But then again, ate Tones, we can talk five years from now and maybe...
11:52.4
Eh, pwede pa rin magbago.
11:53.4
Things will be different.
11:54.4
You know, but from where I'm sitting...
11:55.4
We're humans, we change every single day.
11:57.4
That's the only thing that is actually promised to us.
12:01.4
Kasi as you mature in life,
12:03.4
as you experience a lot of things along the way,
12:06.4
nababago ka, namamold yung pananaw mo.
12:09.4
Ito kasi based on your experience growing up.
12:12.4
Ito. Ito yung nangyari sa'yo.
12:13.4
Ito na yung pananaw mo.
12:15.4
Ito na yung na-observe mo. Okay.
12:17.4
And then eventually, you know, as you age,
12:20.4
hindi natin malalaman.
12:21.4
Maybe now, yan yung conversation natin.
12:23.4
Ten years from now, when we see each other,
12:26.4
Di ba? Hindi natin masasabi.
12:28.4
Yeah, bite my tongue.
12:29.4
Hindi natin masasabi talaga.
12:31.4
That's true. I do naman agree with you in that sense.
12:34.4
Kasi di ba tayo, we all have our own childhood wounds, traumas that we have to heal from.
12:40.4
Tapos ang dream mo sa anak mo is they don't have it.
12:43.4
They have to heal from their childhood.
12:45.4
With you as her dad.
12:47.4
Wow, that hit hard.
12:53.4
You hope one day your daughter will grow up and she doesn't have to heal from having you as her father.
13:02.4
There's nothing in this life now that I wanna do aside from if it's for her.
13:08.4
I think as a dad or any parent, it's just,
13:11.4
it's kind of like dead set already.
13:14.4
Like I said, it was a moment for me when I saw her.
13:19.4
This is now my vow to you the rest of my life.
13:23.4
And I saw that with my mom.
13:25.4
How much she gave up.
13:26.4
She gave up so much for my brother and I.
13:30.4
It's kind of ridiculous how selfless it was watching her raise two boys
13:35.4
and then kami pa yung panareklamo na bakit ganito, bakit ganyan.
13:40.4
It's difficult pala.
13:41.4
You went through a dark phase din.
13:44.4
And I, you know what, I'm...
13:46.4
Paano mo na-survive?
13:49.4
Or you're still surviving?
13:51.4
No, I've climbed out of that pit and I'm so happy that I have.
13:55.4
And now I can sit here in front of you and actually tell you about the story.
13:59.4
After two years of coming out of rehab, I wanna talk about it na.
14:05.4
Ba't ka nag-rehab?
14:07.4
In 2018, I was in such a dark point in my life.
14:09.4
You know, not only friends, not only family.
14:12.4
Even I was starting, you know, petty quarrels with random people.
14:18.4
There were people who were mad at me.
14:20.4
Parang patong-patong na.
14:21.4
Because hurt people hurt people.
14:24.4
In rehabilitation, 2018, it took me a very long time to understand my problems.
14:29.4
It took me a lot longer to figure out where the problem was deriving from.
14:33.4
Like, what was causing my problems.
14:35.4
Nakuha mo yung root cause?
14:38.4
Ano yung root cause? Pwede mo bang i-share?
14:40.4
Or it's too private?
14:43.4
It had to do with my upbringing.
14:46.4
The people around me.
14:48.4
Yung, I guess I could say my group of friends nung time na yun.
14:53.4
Which today, some of them are still my friends.
14:56.4
But it was really me.
14:57.4
I was the problem at that point in my life.
15:00.4
I was self-destructive.
15:02.4
Parang kapalang kanta ni Taylor Swift.
15:08.4
Yes, that's true.
15:10.4
I was self-destructive nung time na yun.
15:12.4
And I wasn't aware.
15:14.4
So nung naging aware ako, I fixed myself.
15:16.4
It took some time.
15:18.4
But in saying all this, the reason why I'm only talking about it now is
15:22.4
I realized din na if I can help kahit isang tao,
15:27.4
anyone who's watching your program, who ends up watching a video of mine,
15:31.4
just a single soul out there who's going through the same struggles as I was going through
15:36.4
back in those days.
15:37.4
An unending cycle of just absolute...
15:42.4
Then at least I didn't go through it in vain.
15:45.4
At least yung pinagdaanan ko, it was pointless.
15:49.4
Saan mo sila gustong matulungan? In what way?
15:52.4
I can explain this to them.
15:54.4
Actually, when I graduated, I became a counselor.
15:56.4
I could counsel people.
15:57.4
Nung nag-rehab ka, was it for alcohol?
16:00.4
It was because of my psychological way of thinking.
16:03.4
But kasama dun siyempre.
16:05.4
And at that point in my life, I became...
16:10.4
On the ropes of suicidal.
16:12.4
And substances that I was taking weren't helping that problem of mine.
16:18.4
Siyempre, when you drink, you become emotional, di ba?
16:20.4
Oo. Tapos dun lumalabas lahat ng mga inner pains.
16:24.4
That you're trying to cover up.
16:26.4
Paano yung healing process?
16:28.4
It was a long 14 months.
16:33.4
Religion is a difficult thing.
16:35.4
It's a difficult topic for me.
16:36.4
But I found God inside rehabilitation.
16:38.4
I would pray and literally the next day,
16:41.4
what I prayed for would be unfolding in front of my eyes.
16:45.4
I didn't see my mom until 8 months.
16:47.4
You're not allowed to see your family.
16:51.4
I was sleeping in the corridor, in the hallway.
16:54.4
Wala na akong bed.
16:56.4
Like as thin as that sheet of tissue paper.
16:59.4
So masakot sa likod?
17:00.4
It's just you're pretty much sleeping on the floor.
17:04.4
I could see yung mga kabatch ko kasabayan ko pumasok.
17:07.4
They were all seeing their parents.
17:08.4
Kaso tigas ulo ko sa loob eh.
17:10.4
So I said, sana naman, Lord.
17:12.4
Makita ng mga kuyas ko.
17:14.4
Kuyas are the higher-ups na I'm trying.
17:17.4
And that very next day, I saw my mom.
17:21.4
As crazy as it sounds, that really did happen.
17:25.4
Physically, nandun siya?
17:26.4
Yeah. No, she came to visit me na.
17:28.4
I was allowed to see her.
17:29.4
Akala ko panaginip.
17:30.4
No, I was allowed to see her na for the first time.
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So, syempre, iya ko ng iya.
17:35.4
And then, you know, I'd pray again na sana next week, I can have my first day pass.
17:41.4
Lahat ng pinag-pray mo?
17:43.4
So do mo na realize, pag nagpapray kami, nakikinig.
17:46.4
Anong hinahanap mo ba sa buhay mo nung time na yun?
17:52.4
Anong hinahanap mo?
17:53.4
It was self-love eh.
17:55.4
Like, I'm a very giving person.
17:58.4
People who are my friends could probably vouch for me.
18:01.4
Maybe they would.
18:02.4
Maybe they wouldn't.
18:04.4
I'm a people pleaser, kumbaga.
18:06.4
They taught me inside na paano ka makakapagbigay.
18:09.4
A perfect example is this glass.
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It's filled with water.
18:12.4
If your glass is half empty and you need water, if I give you some, I'm empty.
18:18.4
And that was me before.
18:19.4
I just kept on giving, giving.
18:21.4
I'd get a little, I'd give again.
18:24.4
And for me, it gave me parang a purpose for that moment.
18:28.4
I was, oh, may fulfillment si Diego.
18:31.4
Inside, they taught me,
18:33.4
Hayaan mo muna punuin mo yung sarili mo.
18:35.4
Let your glass fill up.
18:37.4
So then now, if you're overflowing, you can help others.
18:40.4
Your number one job is to fill your cup.
18:46.4
What's inside the cup is yours.
18:48.4
What overflows is for them.
18:52.4
Yung para sa'yo, binibigay mo pa sa iba.
18:56.4
When I was in rehab, I wasn't happy.
19:01.4
But now, in hindsight, I'm like, thank the Lord.
19:04.4
Thank my mom that I went through that.
19:07.4
Even when I bond with my dad now, when we hang out, it's different.
19:11.4
And I guess he sees...
19:12.4
Ate may mga anger, no?
19:16.4
But now, it's not, ate.
19:19.4
Everything's great.
19:20.4
It's so different.
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I respect him and I understand him now.
19:25.4
There's still so many questions, but let bygones be bygones now.
19:29.4
Why will I still bring up the past?
19:31.4
Natuto ka na mag-forgive.
19:33.4
Best advice your mom gave you?
19:35.4
She kind of looked at what I wanted to do.
19:38.4
She'll give her two cents.
19:40.4
Magbibigay siyang payo.
19:45.4
I guess that's why I've also adapted this way of wanting to parent my child na
19:50.4
instead of telling your child, oh, don't go there, madadapa ka.
19:53.4
I guess, hayaan mo maranasan.
19:57.4
Ah, you want experience.
20:00.4
To be the best teacher?
20:01.4
To be the best teacher.
20:03.4
Alam naman kung cliff yun.
20:04.4
Iba naman kung ano.
20:05.4
Of course, experience can be the best and sometimes worst teacher.
20:11.4
That's true also.
20:12.4
But ganun mo gustong kung paano ka?
20:15.4
Hinuruan ng mami mo.
20:17.4
She let me see life how it really is.
20:20.4
I mean, everything's great when you learn it by the book, diba?
20:24.4
But then when you're really in the field and doing what you learned from the book, sometimes
20:28.4
you don't know what to do.
20:29.4
Until you go through it.
20:30.4
Until you really feel what it was.
20:33.4
Ba't ka pumasok sa showbiz?
20:35.4
Wonderful question.
20:36.4
That's kind of what I was pertaining to.
20:40.4
Let's just put it this way.
20:42.4
Ilang taon ka ba nun?
20:43.4
When you entered showbiz?
20:46.4
I was second year high school, Australian, couldn't speak a word of Filipino, of Tagalog.
20:52.4
I came to this country not knowing my dad was a movie star.
20:58.4
Na ang daddy mo si Cesar Montano?
21:05.4
She just told me he's in showbiz.
21:07.4
I didn't know how big of a superstar.
21:09.4
I didn't know he was Cesar Montano.
21:11.4
Ah, hindi mo rin alam ang name?
21:14.4
Hindi ko alam yung parang...
21:16.4
Ah, yung magnitude ng name na Cesar Montano.
21:19.4
Na Jose Rizal, Muro Ami.
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One of the best actors in the country.
21:24.4
When we'd go up, people yelling.
21:25.4
I was like, what's going on?
21:26.4
Like, what the hell is this?
21:27.4
Alam mo lang Cesar Montano, actor, ganun.
21:31.4
Pero hindi mo alam yung magnitude nung fame niya at saka yung status niya sa showbiz.
21:39.4
I was in second year high school.
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I have five dollars a day for my baon nung time na yun in Australia.
21:45.4
Then I come here and I see my dad's loaded.
21:48.4
He's a movie star.
21:49.4
My tita Bing is very well off.
21:52.4
My mom, everybody knows my mom.
21:54.4
So I was like, okay.
21:55.4
In a 14-year-old's head.
21:57.4
This is an easy way to make money.
21:58.4
I should start making money already.
22:02.4
I used to do drama in Australia.
22:03.4
I did a drama class.
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But this is without knowing a word of Tagalog.
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Like, I could not.
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I would see yun na nung time na yun around ABS.
22:18.4
We even hosted together.
22:19.4
Ate Alex and I hosted Asap Chill Out.
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And then so, for me, it was a career.
22:27.4
A career opportunity already at that time.
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Okay, ipasukin ko to.
22:35.4
It was difficult.
22:38.4
Nawala na yung private life.
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Everything was just blown up.
22:43.4
You know, the comments of,
22:44.4
ah, porkit anak ng artista,
22:45.4
kailangan din mag-artista.
22:51.4
Pag hindi pa buo yung pagkatao mo.
22:54.4
You will believe everything that they tell you.
22:56.4
There's a lot of politics to show business.
22:58.4
Whether we admit it or not.
23:00.4
There's a lot of politics to, like, the show business.
23:02.4
And it was difficult.
23:04.4
But then, you know.
23:05.4
So, 8 years kang super active sa showbiz.
23:08.4
2011 hanggang 2018.
23:11.4
But, you know, nai-realize ko,
23:13.4
kung unhealed ka and broken ka on the inside
23:19.4
and then you enter show business,
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na hindi pa buo ko yung pagkatao mo,
23:24.4
you will be easily persuaded by the people around you.
23:28.4
Easily influenced.
23:29.4
Easily manipulated.
23:32.4
Kasi hindi mo pa kilala kung sino ka eh.
23:34.4
Parang pag at 14, di ba, inaaral mo pa kung sino ba si Diego?
23:37.4
Ano ba yung gusto ko sa buhay?
23:39.4
Tapos nakita mo yun ang gusto nila.
23:41.4
Ah, okay, yan din ang gusto ko.
23:42.4
Ah, yan ba yung ginagawa niyo?
23:43.4
Sige, gawin ko din yan.
23:45.4
Di ba, go with the flow ka lang.
23:46.4
Hindi rin yung nakatulong sa mental health mo.
23:49.4
That's why I get why my dad wanted me to study talaga muna dito.
23:53.4
Bago ako pasukan yung mundong show business.
23:56.4
It was for me to find myself.
23:58.4
But of course, as a 14-year-old, you don't listen.
24:01.4
You wouldn't realize that.
24:03.4
Now, in hindsight, I do.
24:06.4
How do you handle people's judgments and perceptions sa'yo?
24:10.4
I guess, I listen to the people closest to me.
24:13.4
My friends, my tita Bing, my mom, my dad.
24:15.4
If one of them tells me I'm doing something wrong, I'll listen.
24:19.4
Until now, I'm still in touch with my mentors from rehabilitation.
24:22.4
So, if I ever cross a line, they're gonna be right there to let me know, tell me off, reprimand me.
24:30.4
If I could talk to myself from five years ago or if he could see me now, he'd be very proud.
24:36.4
But if you would ask me, am I in the position where I'm happy already in my life?
24:42.4
There's still so much more I want to achieve, so much more I want to do, so much more I want to grow.
24:47.4
But if 2018 Diego could see me where I'm sitting now,
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he'd give me a slow clap.
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And at least I could tell him also that it gets better.
24:58.4
Life gets better.
