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To be honest, I am not a good storyteller.
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Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan ito.
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Itago mo ako sa pangalang Rosie.
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ang aking secret fall.
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After ko na nakatapos ng college,
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nag-work ako sa isang government agency.
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Bilang isang temporary clerk.
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At lumabas agad ng bansa.
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Isa akong miyembro ng NBSB.
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Ang buhay ko lang noon ay umiikot sa school,
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Napunta ako sa Middle East,
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but rain to be specific,
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at the age of 21.
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Nag-trabaho ako bilang receptionist sa airport.
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Marami akong mga nakikilalang tao.
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Pero may dalawa na talagang nakakuha ng atensyon ko.
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The first guy ay naging best friend ko.
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Then the second guy,
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siya naman ang naging boyfriend ko.
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Nag-promise ako sa sarili ko na hindi muna ako magbaboyfriend sa first two years ko.
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Pero pinagbibigyan ko ang mga kasama ko na i-arrange ako ng blind date.
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Natutuwa kasi sila sa akin.
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challenge na rin kung paano nila ako makonvince
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na magkaroon ng boyfriend.
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A month bago ako magdalawang taon sa trabaho,
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may lalaking pabalik-balik sa pwesto ko.
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At panay ang ngiti.
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But he never asked for my phone number.
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Sabi ko sa sarili ko,
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hingin niya ang number ko.
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Before uwian, lahat ng mga kasama ko tinutukso ako.
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Sinasabi sa akin na,
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sana may makatagpo rin kaming lalaki katulad ng nakatagpo ni Rosie.
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may iniabot sila sa akin na bouquet of flowers.
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Tinignan ko ang bouquet.
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Chinick ko ang card.
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I hope you will accept me as your friend.
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Tinanong ko ang supervisor ko.
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Wala akong kilalang Brent.
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Binigay ko na ang number mo sa kanya.
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At sabi niya kung may number at kilala ko raw ang babaeng parang Barbie sa resepsyon.
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Nang marinig ko eh, natawa ako.
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Yun talagang description sa akin.
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Well, that time kasi payat at matangkad ako.
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Pero hindi naman ako kasing ganda ni Barbie.
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At doon na nagsimula ang lahat.
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Brent is a military man.
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Naka-base siya sa Kuwait.
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Isa siyang American.
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Binibisita niya ako every two weeks.
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Tumatawag siya every morning.
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meron pang text in between.
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Yun ang naging routine naming dalawa.
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Then after a year,
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tinanong niya ako.
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Kung pwede na ba kaming maging mag-boyfriend o girlfriend?
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Kasi maliban sa ang tsaga niya,
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nasa malayo siya.
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To be honest kasi,
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sa mga lahi nila,
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mabilisan talaga.
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So after a month na sinagot ko siya,
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tuwing bibisita siya,
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may kasama siyang mga kaibigan.
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Pinakikilala niya ako.
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Hanggang sa nakontakt na rin ako
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ng mom niya sa US.
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Naging regular na chatmate ko
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ang mom niya simula noon.
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After six months na naging kami,
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it was time for my annual leave.
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And I will spend my 45 days in the Philippines.
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Nagulat ako nung magtanong siya,
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kung pwede na ba siyang sumama sa akin.
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Nag-alangan ako kasi hindi pa alam ng pamilya ko
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na may boyfriend na ako.
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Tsaka mahirap lang kami.
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I'm not sure kung kakayanin niya
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na mag-stay sa amin.
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when he heard my hesitation.
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Hesitation that came from my voice.
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Pag uwi namin ng Iloilo,
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wala naman akong dapat ipag-alala pala.
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Kasi kayang-kaya niyang makipagsabayan
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sa buhay ng mga tao sa amin.
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Nakasundo niya ang lahat.
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Kaya ang saya-saya ko,
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wala na akong dapat ipag-alala.
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Then bumalik na kami sa kanya-kanya naming bansa.
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After five months,
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niyaya niya ako uli na umuwi ng Pilipinas.
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Kakausapin lang daw niya ng personal
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at ihingin niya ang permission ng pamilya ko.
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Nakaka-overwhelm ang mga pangyayari.
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Nakakuha ako ng two weeks approval from work,
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pero in a month pa.
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Then one morning,
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when he called me to wake me up,
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wished me to have a good day on work,
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medyo naging emotional siya.
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that I love you so much.
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And I thank God for having you.
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I cannot wait to spend my life with you.
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I'm sorry if someday,
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I'm the cause of your tears.
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Dahil sa sinabi niyang yun,
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napajoke tuloy ako.
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Why do I feel like you are going to leave me?
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Is there someone else?
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that if there is someone else,
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I will not insist myself.
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Just let me know.
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I love you so much.
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I want you to know that.
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Pares kaming mangyak-ngiyak
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mula sa isa't isa.
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Nag-I love you-han kami.
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I love you so much.
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And please be careful on driving.
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pumunta ako ng toilet
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para mag-open at mag-check ng cellphone ko.
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Meron akong mensahe.
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I love you, Sweetie.
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Then just like after a minute,
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may tumatawag na unknown number from Kuwait.
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Ang intro sa akin ay,
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Am I talking to Rosie?
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Yes. May I know who I am talking to, please?
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Rosie, this is Tony,
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Brent's commander.
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Please listen to me.
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I hate to be the bearer of this news,
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but I have to let you know.
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Brent just had an accident
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and he wasn't able to make it.
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I don't want to believe it.
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Kaya ang sabi ko,
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If he's joking, it's not funny at all.
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I was just talking to him this morning.
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He wished it was a joke.
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But it's hard for him as well.
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Lumabas ako ng toilet.
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Nablangko ang lahat tulala.
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Tinatanong ako ng mga kasama ko kung anong nangyayari sa amin.
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They got use of me being jolly.
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Pero during that time, wala silang makuha sa akin.
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And then my supervisor came.
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Asking if masama bang pakiramdam ko.
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At dahil sa yakap na yun, bigla na ako napakagulgol.
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Nagulat ang lahat.
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He had an accident this morning, but I don't know.
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That day, naging sunod-sunod na ang calls.
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Mula sa kanyang best friend.
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Mula sa mom niya.
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Mula sa supervisor niya.
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Sa commander niya.
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And I just cried.
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Grabe, para akong lutang.
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The commander called me again to update me.
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That the family is requesting for my presence on his funeral.
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I told him I am not sure.
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Because it will take some time to process the papers.
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And I'm not sure if this time my company will let me travel to US.
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Also iniisip ko ang gastusin.
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Ubus na ang savings ko.
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Papautangin niya raw ako.
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Few moments later,
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Ang commander niya.
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They contacted our management,
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And they will take care of my ticket as well.
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I hope you will be okay.
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And won't be surprised.
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But I want you to know from now,
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And we just knew it today,
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That there are other women involved.
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And they are requesting,
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To let them go to US and attend the funeral.
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What should I do?
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As per the mother,
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They want you there.
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Not the other women.
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Can I let them know of your existence?
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That you're going to be there?
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But please don't tell them that I am also his girlfriend.
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Just tell them that I'm a close family friend.
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Pagkatapos ng call na yun, naging rollercoaster ang emotion ko.
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Knowing that kind of reality.
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Pagkatapos ng call na yun, naging rollercoaster ang emotion ko.
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Very cool and welcoming silang lahat.
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Tapos kinagabihan, yung mom niya may inabot sa aking pair of rings.
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I asked her, what are these?
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She said, those are yours.
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He asked me to pick it last month.
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Napaka, napaiyak ako sa sinabi ng mom niya.
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Then I said, I'm not sure if it's really for me.
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Then she answered, he only introduced one, and it was you.
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Pagkatapos nun ay iniakap niya na ako.
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Pagkakahaan after ng military shooting, they asked me to come over.
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Tinurned over yung flag sa mom niya, yung badges niya sa akin.
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Then they gave me a moment to be alone.
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I'm not sure if I should ask you why.
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I'm not sure if I should say, maybe you are really not meant for me.
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That maybe this is happening because we will die.
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Maybe fighting over you.
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I don't really know if you love me at all.
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Ang sakit-sakit lang na kailangan sa ganitong paraan ko pa malalaman.
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Ang galing mo lang.
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Because you never made me feel na may iba pala.
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You never gave me a reason to have a doubt.
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So, maya-maya pa ay dumating si commander.
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He told me how admirable I am.
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Or admirable I am.
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If how I handled the situation.
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He said, you can scream if you want.
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That will be useless.
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I'm hurt because I lost him.
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And because I was betrayed.
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Knowing that I am not the only one.
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Actually, I think one is a hacker and managed to get my email and phone number.
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She shared it to all.
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I don't know if I deserve to be here.
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But I want to finish this quickly.
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Nang makabalik kami sa lugar nila.
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Magkakasama kami lahat.
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Pinag-uusapan namin lahat ng mga memories namin with Brent.
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Pero kailangan kong i-share yung sa akin.
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Yung sa amin ni Brent.
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Then I opened my emails and there,
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have emails sent to me.
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Apat na Pinay at isang American.
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Lahat galing sa iba't ibang bansa.
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But the one staying in the Philippines is the wild one.
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Lahat sila nag-wish na sana sila
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ang nasa lugar ko.
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ako pinayagan at sila hindi.
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Ang isa, nagpapadala pa ng photos nila in bed.
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ang story niya kung paano nilagay na Waang lahat.
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I was reading all the emails loudly para marinig niya mom niya.
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Kasi they're all part of his memory.
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Pero parang dinudulog ang puso ko habang binabasa at tinitingnan ang mga photos nila together.
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And then, his mom embraced me and told me to stop.
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The commander asked,
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Mom, if he can take me away to Florida for three days just to relax a bit.
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I end up spending five days in Florida.
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And five days with Brent's mom.
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Then back to Bahrain with my work.
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Maraming nagsasabi ng mga kasamahan ko,
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bakit daw hindi ko ginrabang pagkakataon na magstay doon.
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Sayang raw ang visa.
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It is not for me.
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It is not for me.
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Hanggang dito na lang po, T. Sheria.
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Muli, ako si Rosie.
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At ito ang aking secret vow.
